easter...??

"life's a climb...but the view is amazing."
"caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be...butterfly fly away"

i finally realized something last nite...or, this morning rather...when deyvn and i were sitting in her car outside of the house. we sat there and talked for over an hour...just watching the moon rise. it meant something to me. idk...i guess you'd just have to have been there or something. we drove all the way out to ODU after we got out of the Hannah Montana movie last night at 10:30 just to say hi to the school that's going to make our dreams and goals come true. we're determined. and nothing is going to stand in the way. it's a long and winding road that we're both about to embark upon...i've already started the journey, and this first year has been hell...but it's only going to get harder. im ready though. i'm ready with open arms. i know where i'm going in life. i know my right path. no one understand that except me. but you just have to trust me on all this. i'll prove myself to you. i'll prove that i can make it just fine - even better - by being on the path that i'm currently on. i promise. but i'll still prove it.

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anyways...i close tonight with my brothers and my dad. lol...it was funny. reggie's like my dad at food lion. i walked into the office the other night with steven b/c we were the only three closing, and reggie comes in with his key and is like "you just walked into the office with a guy after midnight..." and yeah, reggie trusts both of us..ha, considering steven's in touch with his feminine side anyway. lol...but then steven was like "oh my god...you're like our dad...watching out for us." and i nodded and reggie was like "yeah...i am...that's just the way i've always been." idk. it was funny, but it meant something...it was like another part of this jigsaw puzzle of life. and they both know that i attach myself to people. everyone at food lion does. like dana too..she's like my big sister haha.

but in retrospect - food lion is a family of it's own. i still have my big sister and big brother/dad figure from somewhere else too. and they know how grateful i am for them. [or at least they should by now...] but i'll still prove that through actions. without actions, words are just words.

okay, the only quotes for today are the opening lines of this blog. interpret it the way you want. it has it's own meaning to me. it's like devyn and i were saying last night...the past has made us who we are today. we're both ready to move on, start anew...but take those memories with us...just not dwell in them too much. just remember them...

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