today's quote...

Therefore, we who have fled to him for refuge can have great confidence as we hold to the hope that lies before us.
--Hebrews 6:18-19 ♥

(aww! i love that quote.)

whaaaat??!?!!

i slept til almost 12:30 today...?!?!?!!! >.<

might've had something to do with staying out so late last nite.

however, it was worth it. XD

jello wrestling was TOTALLY the right way to send the semester!! ;D

have a nice day cafe - awesome :)

[i still went to karate tho :) which was also well woth it.]


ah, now...to catch up on my reading... :D
puttin on some Mbandi & settling down with my laptop. :)

quote for today...erm, yesterday..?

"Judge a tree by the fruit it produces, not by its leaves."


i found this quote at wards corner...you know, that mini billboard that normally displays oxymorons right by farm fresh. surprisingly, the gas station that owns the billboard states it will start posting useful quotes for the passers-by. i'm glad...however, other drivers should not take on my genuis idea and try to write down the quote on an index card (on the horn of the steering wheel) while driving. >.< but yes...never hurts to ponder the true meaning of a wonderful quote while taking a nice drive. :)

g'nite all.
-kel

i realize this is the third post for today...

but here are s'more good vids to watch if you have time. <3

"i am yours..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CT7x3VnrqbA

"the motions"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qaHmiFaX_pk


[alrite...im going to bed. waking up early tomorrow to work on my finals that are due this week, and to study for the rest that are next week. >.< blargh lol]

something to think about...

Every blade of grass has it's own angel to stand over it and whisper "grow. grow." Imagine what people have...

i know i have very many angels.
and im thankful for every single one of them.



anyways...work was fun tonite. my brothers were there & all. =P i got off @ like 8-ish & went to taco bell w/ steven for roy. XD it was funny. =P and miss o was turning into her parking lot as we were leaving & i beeped at her. =P teehee.

ah geez. good dayyy =P
<3-kel

"lost generation"

shocking at first, but well worth the reverse effect.

watch it...

i refuse to believe i'm part of a lost generation.

i CAN change the world.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42E2fAWM6rA

i promised i'd post [lol]

gahh...today was awesome!!!!
just like old times. i'll never forget it. :)
ha...winston full flavor short.
i'll remember that too...

[i still that dorky kellie...i'll always be like that. okay? lol, i'll remember every little detail. i'll never change, haha...]

Quote of the Day:
"those catholic school girls...once they get started, watch out..."
lmao. no analysis needed! XD hahaha =P

:)
hahaha...oh geez.
im like all smiles right now.
this is awesome.
it's so awesome, it's ridiculous. XD

oh...and yeah...blog about the car. everything that's been done to it lately - fixing it, having it actually START when you turn the key, the new gas tank, etc...my father's been paying for it all. i've not had to reimburse him for anything. it got to the point where i was concerned that i'd have this huge bill [when the new shiney gas tank got put in] that i asked him about it, and he said he would be taking care of the repairs/maintinence from now on. ((im aware my spelling SUCKS today, im just giddy and dont feel like grabbing a dictionary or looking it up in word. lol...soon as i get off here, i've gotta practice my history presentation again. >.<>.< but yeah, that's the story. everything's been looking up lately.

okay...off to go work on history. >.<
once again...i'll be SO glad when this semester is over...
I CAN CATCH UP ON READING AGAIN!!! =D

toodles :)
<3- "spaz"

my brothers make me laugh...

the facebook conversation that followed:

Kyle Douglas [that's Steven, for those of you wondering...] likes this image.

Kyle Douglas at 11:26pm April 22
I love this!!!

Kellie Clark at 11:26pm April 22
hahahaha...IKR!?!?!!

Kyle Douglas at 11:27pm April 22
roy said it's not true.

Kellie Clark at 11:28pm April 22
not true? i beg to differ. lol

Kyle Douglas at 11:28pm April 22
yeah i don't know. he is retarded.

Kellie Clark at 11:29pm April 22
lol...nah, just special ;D

Kyle Douglas at 11:29pm April 22
"bitch"

Kellie Clark at 11:30pm April 22
;D u kno it ;D lol jk jk XD

Kyle Douglas at 11:30pm April 22
haha. no you are.

Kellie Clark at 11:31pm April 22
;_; AM NOT!

Kyle Douglas at 11:32pm April 22
lol we love you. :)

secrets unveiled // my stupidity

well...crystal now knows my "deep dark secret" / main reason why i couldnt look at brittney directly in the eye on saturday...>.<
and like...when we started talking...oh geez...>.<
blargh...yeah...dont know how i'm going to go about all that, but she wants to go guitar shopping soon, lol :) [yay!] >.<
i mean...everyone at my work knows, and a few select other ppl...but i wouldnt want anyone like lauren c. finding out...well, either lauren i guess. idk O_o or nancy and grady...im not sure how they'd take it...or if they'd COMPLETELY disown me. =/ gah. idk...idc really.

aside from all that...idk what's gotten into me the past few days. i've been thinking too much again i guess. but whatever the hell is wrong with me is pushing me over the edge. im to the point where i was recklessly driving today. i crossed three lanes of traffic BETWEEN two 18-wheelers...as well as raced someone on the way home from karate tonight. i was going 55 on chesapeake blvd. i couldve gotten hurt. or worse - i couldve gotten someone else hurt. the worst part is, the idiots [including myself] that i was racing were both on bikes screaming "yeaauh" the whole time. i was stupid. i'm never going to do that again. i honestly shouldnt have been driving. i've never had this much on my mind before. and i shouldnt be driving when im thinking like this. its terrible. i hate it. i hate all of it. =/

ugh, i guess i know why i slept until 1 today...so i could stay up all night doing homework. O_o finish up editing that 10-pg history paper & email it to my history teacher, edit the video - which i'll post on youtube for your viewing pleasure - and email THAT to my history teacher, edit my powerpoint for my presentation tomorrow for english, and print out a buncha stuff for history and chem. [actually, might do the printing in the morning, just wake up early. idk]

i'd better get off of here. i'll catch up on quotes and their analysis things eventually. probably once the semester's over b/c i NEED to intensely (sp) study for these upcoming exams.

peace [and happy earth day tomorrow!]
-kel

mom...

goes in for surgery day after tomorrow.

im worried. concerned. distraught.

and i cant even be there for her...

ugh. FML. =/

it broke my heart to hear her crying on the phone tonight when i called her form work.

she's scared. i am too. i just hope she'll be alright.

i love you, mom.

i'm praying for you.

uhm...

im mad i just NOW realized i had like three comments on various blogs.
what happened to notifications??? >.<

[g'nite]

before bed...

as my 2nd semester [or first year, really] at ODU slowly nears its end, i've been thinking more and more about the future. what it really holds. idk...i mean, everything at home has been looking up lately. surprisingly, everything's all good here. my father has obtained a new job. court security in the city of portsmouth, working w/ capt. goumines. he'll be making more, and have to work less. [boy, that sounds familiar...=/ ] he bought a new [sorta] car from the owner of Regino's, and it runs wonderfully. very few miles on it, and it's been well taken care of. but i'm glad he got the new job. he's been entirely sober since i returned. hasnt broken it. and im actually kind of proud of him. im sure to let him know that every other day, so that he keeps up this good habit. im just not sure of why he didnt quit when my sister moved out 4 years ago. [??] speaking of her, she's taking care of her diabetes again. yesterday, her reading was 328. a dangerously high reading. she finally took her insulin after three years and woke up this morning with a normal reading of 120. im proud of her too. she needs to take care of herself. diabetes, much like any other disease, is serious and if not taken care of properly, can limit one's life. which i would not want to see.

as for me...im content with where i am, for the most part. i'm 18, and have the freedom to do as i please. i havent had to, nor will i, "ask" my dad's permission to do anything. sunil picked me up today & we chilled for a while [yes, i know - it's surprising], and all i had to say was "i'm going out, i'll be back later." he gave me $20 before i left; no calls while i was out or anything. however, i'd be even more content with my life if someone/something was the same as it was oh, say...back in december. my feelings will never change. my goals and aspirations will always be what they've been for the past few years, and i will achieve them both. [not sure if you/y'all know what my second goal is, but it's okay...you'll know in time.] besides that, im stoked about the MS bike ride coming up. a bit apprehensive of the training involved for me to complete 150 miles on a bike, however...i will do it. there's no "i think i can," it's "I WILL." i was ecstatic the other day when i had my appointment with my new advisors at ODU. my major is Therapeutic Recreation and my new advisor is great. she's excited to know what field i will be going into. one of her friends has MS. [just keeps entering my life...] i know what i want to do with my life, and ODU is my starting ground. every day that i am on the campus, i think of the two most wonderful people that have been my inspiration for so many years...and how they've actually set foot on the campus to take classes as well. idk...im weird like that, but it does mean something. i guess you'd just have to be me to get it.

okay...im off to bed. just finished my metacognition letter for english and have the house to myself. primetime for perfect sleeping while listening to the raindrops pitter-pattering upon my windowsil. [oh, i finally got the song i was working on down-pat. it's awesome. now, as for the singing while playing part...ha, that'll take a while.] ;)

good-night & God bless.
<3-kel

i hope i'm playing correctly...

http://www.911tabs.com/link/?5976931

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fx95y0D64CE

the tips of my fingers are incredibly sore from practicing it so much.
im arriving at pius early tomorrow just so i can sit on the hood of my car and practice.
so hopefully, no one else will be there early.
[im thinking like...8? just enough time to grab breakfast and chill.] :)

practicing this song has given me quite a diversion from my life.
idk..just...sitting here practicing, thinking about the lyrics and the connection they have to me.
O_o i've become very open-minded within the past few weeks...

just think-y i guess.
i'll start posting quotes again soon.
it's bedtime now, though.

Jasper...='( <3

okay...so karate tonight was interesting. i spent it with jasper. crystal and i found him at diary queen. and i couldnt just leave him there...so i put him in my car, and we drove around the neighborhood looking for the owner and everything, but no luck. so we took him to karate and called animal control...='( so they got there right after karate ended, and took him away. ='( but the owners were looking for him and his real name is buddy. i feel like a good samaritan [sp] and all, but i miss him. ='( he fell asleep in my lap in my car. we bonded. everyone at karate bonded with him. i got absolutely NOTHING accomplished tonight...so im kinda glad mr. larry was the only one there, lol. but i miss him. maria's dad said she could adopt him if the owners didnt turn up. and now we're both like really sad because we miss him so much. ='( gahhh. ='(

i'll never forget you jasper! i love you buddy! ='( <3333

woots!! sleepover! haha lol

karate was fun :) painful, but good.

then went to chess nite & stole my sisters.
they're over and we're gonna have a sleepover!! =D lol yay!!
we've all gotta wake up like mega early and they're coming to school with me. haha =P

ODU HERE WE COME!! =D <3

today's quote...

"A photograph is a secret about a secret. The more it tells you the less you know."
- Diane Arbus

(Kind of like eyes...the more you look into them and find out; the less you are likely to see.)

Butterfly Fly Away

yeah...more Miley Cyrus/Billy Ray Cyrus lyrics.
this is the song i've been practicing.
i absolutely love it.
it's all guitar.
acoustic.


Butterfly Fly Away...

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must've been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away (Butterfly fly away)
Got your wings, now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away (Butterfly fly away)
You've been waiting for this day
All along and know just what to do

Butterfly, Butterfly, Butterfly
Butterfly fly away

easter...??

"life's a climb...but the view is amazing."
"caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be...butterfly fly away"

i finally realized something last nite...or, this morning rather...when deyvn and i were sitting in her car outside of the house. we sat there and talked for over an hour...just watching the moon rise. it meant something to me. idk...i guess you'd just have to have been there or something. we drove all the way out to ODU after we got out of the Hannah Montana movie last night at 10:30 just to say hi to the school that's going to make our dreams and goals come true. we're determined. and nothing is going to stand in the way. it's a long and winding road that we're both about to embark upon...i've already started the journey, and this first year has been hell...but it's only going to get harder. im ready though. i'm ready with open arms. i know where i'm going in life. i know my right path. no one understand that except me. but you just have to trust me on all this. i'll prove myself to you. i'll prove that i can make it just fine - even better - by being on the path that i'm currently on. i promise. but i'll still prove it.

<3

anyways...i close tonight with my brothers and my dad. lol...it was funny. reggie's like my dad at food lion. i walked into the office the other night with steven b/c we were the only three closing, and reggie comes in with his key and is like "you just walked into the office with a guy after midnight..." and yeah, reggie trusts both of us..ha, considering steven's in touch with his feminine side anyway. lol...but then steven was like "oh my god...you're like our dad...watching out for us." and i nodded and reggie was like "yeah...i am...that's just the way i've always been." idk. it was funny, but it meant something...it was like another part of this jigsaw puzzle of life. and they both know that i attach myself to people. everyone at food lion does. like dana too..she's like my big sister haha.

but in retrospect - food lion is a family of it's own. i still have my big sister and big brother/dad figure from somewhere else too. and they know how grateful i am for them. [or at least they should by now...] but i'll still prove that through actions. without actions, words are just words.

okay, the only quotes for today are the opening lines of this blog. interpret it the way you want. it has it's own meaning to me. it's like devyn and i were saying last night...the past has made us who we are today. we're both ready to move on, start anew...but take those memories with us...just not dwell in them too much. just remember them...

<3

Chess...

"Every pawn is a baby queen."
[idk who orignally made up the phrase, but Mrs. Suhay says it all the time...]

never underestimate the potential of anyone. they may appear small today, but in the future, they could be one of the people that changes the world. i hope to be the next baby queen. in fact, i will be. pawn today, queen tomorrow...

Bike MS 2009

Just a few links to peruse. Maybe register for an event? =) Help create a world free of MS!! The fundraising has already started for the Bike MS 2009 challenge. I REALLY want to participate this year. If i can get enough people to start training with me? PLEASE!? i really want to do this this year...more than ever. Regardless, if i get people to train with me and possibly participate or not, i'm going to register. I get paid today, and i'm setting aside my money for the challenge. If we could create a team, the participation fee is cheaper. [just a thought for anyone considering...] =) The deadline for registration is next week. PLEASE let me know if you are interested, and we can register online. Check out the website(s) below. You won't regret it. It's for a wonderful cause!!

Bike MS 2009
Virginia's Ocean to Bay RideMay 30-31, 2009
http://bikevax.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR/Bike/VAXBikeEvents?fr_id=9640&pg=entry

Walk MS Challenge 2009
Historic Williamsburg Challenge Walk MSSeptember 12-13, 2009
http://challengevax.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR/Challenge/VAXChallengeWalkEvents?fr_id=11441&pg=entry

Walk MS 2009
Fort Eustis- September 26, 2009
Virginia Beach- September 27, 2009
Chesapeake- October 3, 2009
http://walkvax.nationalmssociety.org/site/PageServer?pagename=WLK_VAX_homepage

how not to use powerpoint...

the idiot embedded code wasnt working. so just click here...it's much worth the watch. i was WEAK!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cagxPlVqrtM

in other news...my sister and i are dying our hair red again. lol. i mentioned it last week, and she said we should totally match for our next photo shoot. i'm stoked!! =D

still dying. O_o

sorry there havent been any interesting quotes the past few days...between dying, visiting Urgent Care and being put on three different meds because of a delayed anaphylactic shock induced by nuts, i havent really had time to do anything except sleep and try to get homework done. >.< i still feel like i can't breathe, my windpipes are still really constricted, and i'm coughing like every five minutes in an attempt to rid my lungs of the nutty debris. O_o gahhh!! the meds are helping a great deal...im not nearly as bad off as i was yesterday - gasping for air every time i inhaled. O_o so, apparently sneezing and what not arent the ONLY things that can happen if i inhale scent of nut products. blergh. O_o

anyways, here's today's quote:

"Sometimes, things fall apart so other things can fall into place." -Unknown.
this seems to be true for me in more ways than one. it's a bit obvious as to what i can relate it to...but what about everyone else? it makes sense...no? sometimes certain doors need to be shut in order for the next one to open. it isnt every day that certain opportunities come about, but they can easily be shut out if one isnt open to receive them.

[i think i'm getting better at this analysis thing...i still feel as though i can expand quite a bit more...but hey, it's a start.] =)
anyways...once this chaotic semester is over, i'll be glad to finally be able to catch up on some much needed reading. [ive missed it!] there just isnt enough time in the day for me to get everything that i need to done. of course...i'm sure everyone could say that. okay...off to art class! :)

today's quote...

"Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain."


to me, life itself is the storm we're all trying to survive...but if we concentrate and stress out on trying to get through the entire picture, we wont be able to fully enjoy life's experiences. sure, it may rain sometimes...but if you live day by day and let things play out for the better, thinking before you act, then you will be able to dance in the rain and overcome any obstacle. <3

ps: i'm open for input on any quote. comments would indeed be helpful on developing my analytical skills. :) thank you!

Lyons Query...?!

TOTALLY never expected this. lol...

it was funny...my sister walks in the room when she got back from work, and i was in bed with willow-marie & my phone buzzed & she goes "mhmm...i know who you're texting...." hahaa

but...he called me his queen last nite when he texted me :D at like 12:31...

[long story, but awwww!!]

anyways, i'll post my quote of the day & the analysis when i get off work tonight. [workin with my brothers toniteee!! lol] i get out @ 8:45. so i'll be online at like 9 or 9:15. workin 1:30-6:30 on saturday, then it's playtime :D for now - i'm running to english class! >.<

lyrics

Jimmy Wayne lyrics:

Paper angels - you're in my thoughts and prayers
No matter where you are right now, remember God's right there
He's asking all of us to help take care
Of his paper angels everywhere...



interpret the way you want, just know im always watching out for God's paper angels.

Image/Quote Analysis before I run to my next class...

Analysis: Read it. Mull it over for a while. It's all so very true. However, there is another evil hidden in others wolves as well - the fact that some people want to hold others back...not wanting to let go and let them start anew. In turn, the evil wolf in that person doesnt want to let go either...causing it to be held back due to either it's surroundings or emotions towards something else. Every obstacle can be overcome. With sacrifices, knowledge, wisdom and experience of others, they will help you through. Anyone can overcome any hardship, obstacle, or bump in the road if they take the time to THINK BEFORE THEY ACT. I'm fully aware of this now, and no longer will I let opportunities get away from me...

Ryan Academy is slowly stepping up in the world...

Have time? Watch these two vids. Parts 1 & 2 of a radio interview with New York's radio station 98.5 The Peak. They're interviewing Mrs. Lisa Suhay, the english teacher at Ryan about how she has implemented the game of chess into the classroom. They're quite interesting vids. Quite inspirational. Especially the part about AJ Evan's girlfriend, Raven.

Watch. Send to all you know. Help this school step up and take on the challenge of facing Rahm & Obama at chess! :)

1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GKxmVNzm3wA
2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HH8rVlpHexk

http://lisasuhay.blogspot.com/


[i'll post the "quote of the day" along with an analysis later on...i've got to get to class.]

another quote before bed...

"a bird can only soar if the sky has no bounds."

analysis: interesting thought - to live by that quote. however, too much freedom can in turn, break the bird's wings...causing the bird to fall in a terrible blunder. soar to new heights by simply THINKING there are no bounds for a while, but realize once you've reached that height that the bounds are there for a reason.

[now discovering i think a lot better when i'm calm and a little tired. ha..wow...]

sleep now? yeah...g'nite :)