okay, so today i find out that devyn AND meagan morse are both the valedictorians for this year at ryan academy. -_- i mean, i'm happy for the both of them, but knowing that meagan is also the valedictorian makes me feel like i worked so hard and fought for what i believed in at ryan academy for nothing. -_- she was completely all for using textbooks and notes on mid-terms and finals. i refused to open a single book, and i STILL got perfect scores. granted she got As or Bs, but after all...it's ryan academy...a baboon could go to that school and pass with flying colors. -_- i feel as though being valedictorian my senior year means nothing anymore. all that i worked for...all that i fought for...all that i tried to improve in that school...uuugh! im not jealous or anything, i just SAW how she went through high school, and i do not believe that she should have been valedictorian because everything was handed to her on a fucking silver platter, and i actually tried to take the road less traveled and WORK FOR MY GRADES. i'm not jealous...i just dont believe in the way in which she achieved "valedictorian status." -_- granted, it being ryan academy, i didnt have to work hard at all to attain my passing grades...however, it's the principle of the damn thing. =/ idc...ryan academy really didnt prepare me for college what-so-FUCKING-ever. -_- i achieved my grades these past two semesters at ODU due to the study skills i obtained at St. Pius...along with attempting to analyze a certain "elven" book last year. ;) but i mean...idk...i'm glad for her i guess...my road to being valedictorian was just as easy...it's RYAN ACADEMY...
idk...it makes me feel like...like...just another average student i guess. i mean, i've always know that i wasnt the smartest cookie out of the ol' "giggle patrol" of pius days. lauren, gaby, katie, shannon...they've ALWAYS had me beat. they continue to do so with their AP classes and acceptance letters to various colleges i would adore to go to. when i was valedictorian last year, i was on top of the world...thinking i was finally of their status and had something to my name...thinking that speech of inspiration [driven by my inspiration] would actually have some sort of affect on someone.
boy was i wrong. =/
idc...i'm still going to persue my dreams, work towards my ultimate goal and refuse to let anything stand in my way. this is but only a little setback...though it will ring in my mind forever...
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You know what you did to get what you got. You know what she did to get what she got. It was two different roads. I believe the road you traveled would be the one to be proud of. Graduate ODU with honors. THAT is a thing that won't be duplicated by someone who can copy from a textbook and notes. Also, be proud of what you did at Ryan Academy. You done did good. Stop thinking like a blonde and start being proud of yourself, doorknob. You got a lot going for you if you don't let yourself get in the way.
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